Half-hearted life

There are so many things I want to do in this life.

I want to do this _________

I want to watch this. ___________

I want to learn _____

I want to improve myself

I want to achieve _____

I've always been a procrastinator. The problem is I lack motivation and focus. I wake up 30 minutes before work, stay up until the late hours of the night and randomly click on internet links. It feels like I have this permanent distraction that is the pending doom of my life. Venturing into the unknown is a scary proposition, but something needs to change.

Granted, I have started getting better. It has started with being able to go to the gym on a more regular basis, which has started to give me a little better focus. I also had a period of a good few weeks of thinking positively. Being on a healthy daily routine will help me as well. That is why I have decided to make a nightly blog that will focus on a positive outlook towards my life.

My life has always felt like such a mess because there is no structure in my life. I do not go to sleep at the same time, do not wake up at the same time and I do not eat nearly enough as I should. That goes for healthy food as well.

For a while I thought that my drought in my life has been my lack of confidence. I do not think that is the case. I am confident in my abilities. I believe my recent lack of success is due to the fact that I am constantly worrying about what others will think about me. I am confident in my knowledge and ability, but my self esteem is a bit of a problem. It is just a matter of me getting rid of the psychological barrier that I put upon myself.

I have a vision for my life and I want my voice to be heard. It is just a matter of changing the

I want to do

To

I am doing

To get to this point, I need to make sure that I live a healthier lifestyle along with a better daily routine. I will make sure that I get 7 to 8 hours of sleep each night. Have at least 3 full meals daily. Work out 4 times a week (I am averaging 3 times a week over the past month). Stay positive. Surround myself with good friends that can support me.

I am ready to finally take a leap into my life and go full throttle. Right now it feels like only half my heart is in this life. The other half is too afraid to try. I am changing that as of today. I am ready to shine.

Are you with me ?

:)